Feel upset for my job, my friends, my mind.

2010 August 26

I'am confuse for many things now...
1st is my job,last month i already want resign, i plan work till end of Sept.
But now so massy, maybe delay work until end of October? [ Not sure...T^T ]
Cuz i though SPG can hv a relax funny trip for genting, but once we start to discuss, this plan always fail, we never success to done it, NEVER NEVER!!
August we plan it but lily hv exam, Sept we plan again but miin said scare she start working [ how take leave=o= ]...So many problem, maybe lot people will say: genting? lolz, too bored lah''...This is the ppl who dunno us~
You though we really like genting genting? The problem is my parent there, they wont let me go far and anywhere[ i told them i want go genting also hard'' i also want go redang langkawi,i try before,and i get the answer is NO! my mummy not allow me go near for 'water' even though i know how to swim and i not a baby ]
But i hope that oneday i can fly other countrys with my friend, i want travel some countrys before i dead! i want eat many delicious food before i dead, i want take lot photo show to my friends before i dead! Due i dun1 and i scare, all the things i havent done, if i hv an accident? I wont forgive myself!

Forget when i go Dasein with miin and her sis, just go look around and take the form ask the details~I really scare when i sit down and listen the counselling?
First he ask me, what course you like? Graphic, do you know what is graphic? i staright ans NO.[ Actually i just know it from others ppl or website, i worry that if he ask me i asnwer wrong so i straight said NO ]...SRY~
Bla bla bla quiet long time, finish blabla he let us go in the class and introduce this this that that~
I felt sad and shame when he ask my result and do you know what is graphic.
When i told him this his face turn down HMM...(T_T)i know lah,please dun let me see the face,is HURT.

Night me,miin,lily and elise eat dinner at Daorae~Maybe that day i'm tired and hurt? Elise msn me dunno why i felt angry [ miin saw me n her msn seems fighting ]
At the end she said come fetch us go to Daerae.Miin go in the car 1st, cuz i need close the door,when i go in, elise ask me : Why you suddenly go look for the college? me: How you knw i go for college? M: just now i told her... Me: Oo,Just look only nt yt confirm E: Actually noneed study lar, my friend said design juz learn sum easy things, better go find a company they will teach you! Noneed experience de... Me: Oo...[ Start there, i'm sibeh dulan what she said, and here...miin ah~i ald told you dun tell other ppl i go look college,how come you told her! Sad+Hurt-ing Originally i think if i really got study then i will tell all of them, but now i nt confirm not ready they all know,if last i continue work i dunno what their thinking~Maybe they will said NVM we dun k but I Mind]... ...that day....finish.

2010 August 22 [ Sunday ]

Finally our plan success: Miin+Lily+Me Sing K
This plan ald fail twice! huh~
10 a.m we meet at jusco>bus stop>teksi>One U
We din told elise, haha~''heart know''.
And i remember last time she said: after work sing k loh [ Night ]
In real me and miin planning go oneU wif lily~
So i ans: harr~where? night worr~
E: cheap cheap manjalara lah aboh u want Iu ahh~so exp~ME NO MONEY!
....me and miin diam diam and smile loh~
So this time go OneU din ask her,let her save money lah~
When we reach OneU find ivy and kacau her, but is late so we run to neway 1st...
That day we sing all korea song whole day~
But lot song dun hv translate lyric, i dunno lah kawan~
SAD~if early i know i sure print out the lyric before i go~huhu
Point is: 2PM again and again dun hv MV! Omo...they use a unknow ppl mv''
T__T Mood down d loh~
after this we find ivy>stand infront the samsung tv promote cuz the tv are showing SNSD live~
Then go buy kuih eat> blablabla > go to the Secret Garden take photo...
Haha...so funny '' and hv many BIG bees~~
When back me and miin take teksi, and we meet a WEIRD UNCLE! hair ald all white but he chat wif miin non-stop! He using pro english talk with miin about cake~what website what deliver what finance... i diam diam loh cuz i nt bakery~He said he know cook baker before live at damansara~now his house gt 3room what what what~He is single! Oww~~this is the point~I felt like he is finding his ''half''~Omo~uncle, u talk like that with 2 youngest than you 100yrs girls dun you felt weird?

.....Balik rumah......
Edit the photo and update,
Next day i saw elise post comment in her friend status~
I copy paste to miin, i want change my status also but i need use chinese,due i working cant taip chinese so i wait for go home~
Miin told me she change status also ask me go see, haha~she's really a kind person~But i'm not, i felt angry elise write like that!Seems wee all wrong? I hate that, excuse' how long you din contact us? msn? sms? phone?
HALO'' miin and lily i dunno, but for me, u DIN'T!
Everytime i heard u said u want but no active this word i quite 'BURN'!

OK~~stop here, i dunno when one of you will read this page, maybe no?
But i ald write this 2month what i sad i hate in here.
Feel Free~
Big Sigh......................................................................END